cahaya yang menghiasi

cahaya yang menghiasi

Tuesday, December 11, 2012


lama dah x update blog..aku dapat rasa yg aku akan update blog ni bila aku sdih..ye..bila aku sdih..skrg aku tgh duk suka lagu ni..sgt signifikan..

Tersentuh hatiku bila terfikirkan kamu
Kau sering bersandar padaku
Di saat kau lelah

Ingatkah dirimu pada waktu-waktu dulu
Aku sering menyambutmu
Di saat kau jatuh

Akulah aku...
Yang slalu membuat kau tersenyum
Walaupun sering ku terluka
Tapi tak mengapa

Akulah aku...
Kan slalu hadir untukmu

Moga nanti suatu hari
Kau akan sedari...

Monday, September 24, 2012

terusik..

tb2 hati terusik..kesungguhan dia..aku ketawa..gembira..YA..aku mampu ketawa dgn jujur pada setiap kata-kata dia..tiada lagi palsu dan pura-pura dalam ketawa tu..setiap malam btukar cerita, hati rasa tenang..adekah dia orgnya?? tak pernah terdetik walau sekelumit dialah "manusia" itu..tapi Allah mentakdirkan hati terusik dgn kehadiran dia..

tb2..aku "dilamar"..
"camne zai?? nak tak yang akak ckp hari tu?"
aku tersentak..tau maksudnya apa..xmmpu beri jwpn..
"dia baik zai, kerja bagus..satu ofis dgn suami akak..engineer offshore juga"
hati rasa gelisah..bukan itu yang aku cari..mgkin jaminan kerjaya dia mampu membuka mata stiap org..tp knp aku xmmpu rs apa2..sebaliknya sgt berat utk aku bg jwpn..penyudahnya, aku diam..cuba elak2 dari ditanya soalan sama berulang kali..

kenapa perlu rasa bersalah tu? kami x pernah ada apa2..aku x pernah berjanji apa2..pd dia..tapi aku tetap rasa bersalah..adakah krn aku jugak sudah mula rasakan sesuatu?kpd dia..aku xtau nak luahkan cmne..cuma aku harapkan apa yg pernah dia tnyakan pada aku adelah serius..supaya aku x duduk dlm persimpangan yang aku sndr buntu..supaya aku x tersalah memilih..kaca dan permata..

ya Allah..aku sebagai hambaMu yang tersangatlah kerdil, aku memohon kepadaMu ya Allah..jika ketenangan yang aku rasakan bersama dengan dia adelah petunjuk bahawa dialah "adamku", maka Kau satukanlah kami Ya Allah..jika tidak, maka Kau bukakanlah pntu hatiku untuk menerima lamaran org yg bnr2 ikhlas mahu menjadikan aku "hawanya"..

p/s:- setiap hari, makin rasa "ketenangan" itu..dan kekosongan yang selama ini, makin terisi..aku tidak memandang rupa, harta, pangkat, kedudukan..aku hanya mahukan seorang yang mampu bahagiakan aku dunia dan akhirat..yang mampu mndengar setiap cerita aku tnpa jemu..jika kamu tnyakan sekali lagi secara serius..i.Allah..akan aku jwb ye..krn mgkin ketenangan yg aku rasa skrg adalah kunci segala jwpn bahawa kamulah orgnya..:')

link yang buat air mata aku menitis..

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

biasa...

salam..bila kita dah biasa ade sum1 teman kite seharian..stp bnda kita nak ckp n share, suddenly bila kita rasa that's it..i've to stop it..stop bkn sbb apa..tp sbb diri sndr trauma n fobia nak rapat ngan sum1 kita akan rs lost..tp xpe..aku akan bljr..u're independent woman zai..i.Allah u can hndle it..put ur trust to Allah..kita slalu rs sdih sbb kita kurg yakin pcturan hidup yg Allah dah wat utk kita..so..hlgkan rasa sdih tu..live a happy life coz kita xtau bila tiba masa utk kita dijemput..:)

p/s:- harus reflect dr sndr, knp tidak pnh kekal and org tkt utk nak dekat..


Friday, August 24, 2012

can i say i do...

it's been more than 100 times u repeat dat question..
"ko nak kwin dgn aku x"..
aku xtau nak jwb ape..aku tkut..
aku x tau aku tkut ape...
so..ley x aku nak jwb YE...hurmm
hrp ko ley baca...tp mustahil...

p/s:- malu....

Monday, July 23, 2012

♥ mysterious man ♥

sum1 is waiting 4 me..i know.."he" shud be sumwhere in dis world..all i've to do is juz praying dat we will meet soon..oh dear Allah..may "he" be blessed by YOU in whatever "he" do..ameeenn..



Sunday, July 22, 2012

memories.

We're not friends. We're strangers with memories.






editing..

salam..after sahur td, aku prefer not to make myself "fall in love" wif the bed again..so i decided to do something..i've started to look at my old pic n did some editing on it..hehe..so..i'm not a pro..mmg alamatnye lama la kan..n aku xtau nak wat effect HDR bagai 2..it juz only a piece of my own masterpiece..hehe..so take a look..

 EYES..
this is the part which i love MOST!!..my mysterious eyes..:)


Saturday, July 21, 2012

salam ramadhan..

trasa sgt bsyukur..Allah msih beri peluang utk mnikmati indahnya ramadhan..smoga dpt mningkatkan pahala amalan dan mghpuskan stiap dosa..

Friday, July 20, 2012

my BFF wedding..

salam..br nk upload gmbr ms aku jd pgpit puan shap!..huhu..so juz njoy the pic!..

flower gurl..

slm tgn mak mertua..

gmbr atas gmbr..huhu

pndgn maut..

bpayung..



















Wednesday, July 18, 2012

1949-2004

al-fatihah..dah 8 tahun arwah tgglkan kami..smoga ditempatkan di kalangan org2 yg beriman abah..i miss u so much..miss ur jokes, miss ur smile, miss u're here..:'(



Sunday, July 15, 2012

jadian..

alhamdulillah..dia dah blik..:)


Friday, July 13, 2012

echo..

Hello, hello
anybody out there?
'cause I don't hear a sound
alone, alone
I don't really know where the world is but I miss it now

Refrain:

I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name
like a fool at the top of my lungs
sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright
but it's never enough
cause my echo, echo
is the only voice coming back
my shadow, shadow
is the only friend that I have

Verse 2:

listen, listen
I would take a whisper if
that's all you have to give
but it isn't, isn't
you could come and save me
try to chase it crazy right out of my head

Refrain:

I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name
like a fool at the top of my lungs
sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright
but it's never enough
cause my echo, echo
is the only voice coming back
my shadow, shadow
is the only friend that I have

Bridge:

I don't wanna be down and
I just wanna feel alive and
get to see your face again but 'til then 
Just my echo, my shadow
youre my only friend

Refrain:

I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name
like a fool at the top of my lungs
sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright
but it's never enough
cause my echo, echo
oh my shadow, shadow

Hello, hello
anybody out there? 

Friday, July 6, 2012

pray..

dear you..please come back wif one piece..and do take care of urself..

sincerely ME..:)


Thursday, July 5, 2012

smile..

juz a simple msej..with a simple words.can make my day..i'm smiling rite now..:)

P/s:- for u..TQ..

Sunday, July 1, 2012

i'm starting to..

dear blog..i want 2 confess..i'm starting 2 miss sum1..yepp..it's unbelievable..but it's true..to whom it may concern..i do miss u..coz only u can make me smile AGAIN..



Wednesday, June 20, 2012

perjalanan panjang..dan masih panjang..

Thank you, ALLAH, for giving me another year of life.
Thank you for all the people who remembered me today
by sending gifts and good wishes.

Thank you for all the experience of this past year;
for times of success which will always be happy memories,
for times of failure which reminded me of my own weakness and of my need for you,
for times of joy when the sun was shining,
for times of sadness which drove me to you.

Forgive me
for the hours I wasted,
for the chances I failed to take,
for the opportunities I missed this past year.
Help me in the days ahead to make this the best year yet,
and through it to bring good credit to myself,
happiness and pride to my loved ones,
and joy to you. Aminn





p/s :- diharapkan makin matang meniti usia..:)

Saturday, June 16, 2012

for u

Don't worry if I argue with you, worry when I stop because that means there's nothing left to fight for.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

my BFF wedding..

thniah shap n totto..smoga bhgia hgga akhir hayat...

Friday, May 25, 2012

jerih perih 24 tahun..

salam..sape x syg mak..ye x?? bg aku, mak adelah sgl2nya..can't imagine my life without her..after abah xde..aku nmpk ksshan dia nak besarkan 4 org anak dara yg dgil2 belaka ni..mncbr sgguh..msing2 de "kpl" msing2..mak lah yg akan jd org tgh yg damaikan n neutralkan sume bnda..slama 24 thun aku hdup kat dnia ni..maklah org yg pling aku syg..pling aku rpt..aku mmg anak manja mak..aku rpt sgt2..stiap kali aku blik cuti..dorg akan sdia tmpt tdo aku khas kat celah ketiak mak.. i really mean it..mmg aku akan tdo btul2 bwh ktiak mak..bkn stkt peribahasa je ok..akulah ank emas emak..even adik bgsu aku pun x cm 2..sori ye ya..kak jai conquer mak..haha..pe2 kaitan ngan mak, akan wat aku cpt snsitif..ye..aku mgaku aku kuat majuk..sbb aku nak manja2 ngan mak..mak x jemu pjuk aku..=)

dah 60 thun mak hdup..dah nmpk garis2 halus kat muke mak..tgn mak yg salu aku cium pun dah de kedut2..tp mak maintain cun..tgklah mak sape..huhu.. bg aku, maklah org yg pling pnyabar..sbr dgn anak2, sbr dgn mnntu..dan skang..sbr ngan cucu..dia x mrungut..u're great mum.. sori coz stiap kali org blik, msti hbis muke mak kena cium ngan org..satu je hrpn org..org nak jd anak yg wat mak ngis sbb bngga..bkn sbb sdih..

ingt lg ms mak skit dl, aku ngis snyp2..mak cm bese..xnak wat aku riso coz aku de exam time 2..Allah je tahu cmne aku rs time 2..rs nak tbang blik ipoh mlm 2 gak..mak operate pun xgtau aku..bila dah aku hbs exam br kak ni ckp mak dah kena operate..tp de mslh sket..bila dgr cm 2, luruh jntung aku, berderai air mata aku..rs cm x tntu arah..tp mak cm bese..blagak cool..xnak anak2 dia risau..

last but not least..xmmpu rsnye aku nak senaraikan sgl pgorbann mak..cuma Allah je yg ley bls..n blsn syurga of coz sbb mak adelah mak thebat..ibu tunggal yg mmpu bsrkan 4 ank pmpuan wpun byk dugaan n hinaan dr org sekeliling..

p/s:- slmt hr jadi mak..trimalah hdiah x seberapa dr org..juz utk mak..=')





Thursday, May 24, 2012

takut...

salam..sy tkut..tkut utk ade psaan tu lg..kerana..sy tidak mmpu jtuh lg..krn jika skali lg sy jtuh..sy tkut sy akan jtuh utk slm2nya..dan xkan bgun kmbali...
Kini kau tiada
Senafas pun ku perlu mencuba
Kau bawa pergi sebahagian dari jiwa raga

Bersendiri hidup umpama hilang erti
Bagaimanakah meneruskan hayat ini

Andai ku bercinta lagi suatu hari nanti
Tunjukkan di mana
Ruang hati untuknya yang masih belum kau huni?

Apabila tiba waktu bersemuka
Ku perlu pejamkan mata dan memaksa lafaz cinta
Dengan bayangmu di minda

Tiada pengganti bisa hadir dan mampu menyembuh
Rawan di hati meleraikan semangat ku runtuh

Bersendiri masa umpama tak beralih
Berapa lama lagi harus ku merintih

Malam tidak berpurnama
Fajar tiada kejora
Aku hilang di dalam gelita kalbu
Tanpa dirimu asaku mati

Sumber : http://www.liriklagumuzika.com/2012/03/lirik-lagu-andai-ku-bercinta-lagi-mojo.html#ixzz1vi67G3VH

Monday, May 21, 2012

every things around me, has it's quote..even juz only a little tiny things..

“It's a lot easier to be lost than found. It's the reason we're always searching and rarely discovered--so many locks not enough keys.”

 Proper names are poetry in the raw. Like all poetry they are untranslatable.
“When life knocks me down, instead of getting back up I usually just lie there , eat cupcakes and take a nap.



“A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows. Love can erase an awful past, love can be yours, you'll see at last. To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave, you'd rather die. You hope you've found that special rose, 'cause you love and care for the one you chose.”

"The best thing is to look natural, but it takes makeup to hide my true feelings"

inspired...


p/s:- perlukan video2 sebegini utk mendamaikan hati..

Sunday, May 13, 2012

diari kecilku..

inilah diari kecil sy..bila sy sdih..sy akan mgadu pdnya..mnulis stiap rungkai kata-kata,bhrp smoga segala kekusutan dan pe yg terpendam dpt dilepaskan..

inilah diari kecil saya..bila sy gmbira..sy akan menyanyi2 smbil menaip pdnya..meluahkan stiap kgmbiraan agar terakam dlm lipatan sejrh..

inilah diari kecil sy..setiap sejarah hidup, lakaran pristiwa, coretan rasa, meluah duka, di sinilah tmptnya..

p/s:- mnulis adelah terapi utk saya...

Saturday, May 12, 2012

adios..

finally..i've 2 say this..adios..and i will let you go..fly away with the wind..


Friday, May 11, 2012

a journey to healthy & beauty..:)

salam..yeahhh..berdsrkan tjuk kat atas 2, ye, mmg aku tgh dlm journey nak jd healthy & beauty..1st off all, kenala sihat dl kan..br la ley jd cntik..huhu..

smlm (10/5/2012), aku & nisa g lah gym (fitness first) kat ioi utk nak reg jd member!! hoyeah..kami ade ms 3 bulan utk klihtn sihat & cntik..ok..countdown starting from TODAY!!!! :)

p/s:- hopefully it will give a best result within 3 months..and get into a shape that i dream about...:) bismillahhirrahmanirahim..:)


























peMiLik..(zai..)

peMiLik..(zai..)

me..yippie

Our NEw MeMbeR..(Aidil)

Our NEw MeMbeR..(Aidil)

2nd nephew

2nd nephew
mohamad irfan naufal fahreen

PeRmAta AtI..

PeRmAta AtI..